Finally get the courage to call the store  you applied to and check on the status of your application; hiring manager isn’t there.

I’m holding on to you because I’m terrified of being lonely. I’m so used to having someone. I get so depressed when I’m alone. Just the fact that I am someone’s something makes me feel better. I can’t handle it. I don’t want to be alone. I feel so pathetic.

The family gets together and asks about school, I lie and say I’m doing good. They ask what grade, senior, oh so you got 6 months left, what ya gunna do after, oh college.

but really I’m doing terrible & if they all knew they would probably never talk to me again.

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my family is so judgemental. They aren’t laid back, & it’s full of well educated happy family soccer mom smart going somewhere goood citizens. & I am everything they aren’t. They don’t except different. They don’t except failure. If you only saw them, if you met them. You’d never believe I was apart of it. I love my family so much & i hate that I’m not good enough. For once I’d like to feel like I belong with them. It’s too much to handle. My anxiety is through the roof right now. I just want it over.

Dear Family,

I’d just like to let you all know, I love you all. I won’t ever stop trying to belong. I’m sorry that I can’t be good enough. Please someday except me.

Tumblr, Sorrry for my venting, sorry for crying and complaining. It just bothers me a lot.

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